Inspired by the abundance of generous support and encouragement for my sailing blog I am continuing to write. I enjoy sharing my words, and view of life from the perspective of it being a giant theatrical university, throughout which we are all given endless opportunities to learn about the world and learn about ourselves.
I disembarked from the boat in Costa Rica, feeling healthy and happy decided to join a 5 day body cleanse in a rural spiritual community. Having been very interested in the bio-mechanics of the human body, nutrition and well-being for a long time, I’ve done some small detoxes in the past, but I now felt it time to step up to a full body release. Entering this process, I was not sure exactly what to expect, but was very excited to let go, and see what would come out of my body and soul.
The process involved a 5 day juice fast, with twice daily colonic enemas and a liver flush. All our nutrient needs were met with the fresh organic juices and our immune system and detox process boosted with superfoods such as Noni and Spirulina. Despite not eating any solid food for 5 days, I rarely felt hungry and the careful timing and fullness of our juicing schedule maintained our blood sugar levels and helped to reduce the urge to boredom eat. Mornings were started with skin brushing and detox yoga, and the evening held space for silent meditation. Living amongst the forest, howler monkeys my morning alarm clock, fresh air my lung cleanser, and sunshine, dancing and sharing of stories, emotions, recipes’ and laughter the nourishment of my soul.
So what comes out when we provide our bodies this beautiful opportunity to slow down and do some spring-cleaning on the inside? As we cease to put food in the stomach the whole digestive tract no longer has to work, and begins the immediate process of releasing built up mucous from it’s lining, which inhibits proper nutrient assimilation. The liver begins to let go of toxins it has stashed for years, and as the liver’s emergency glycogen energy stores are used up the real work of breaking down fat tissues begins. In our fat cells we have a lifetimes worth of accumulated overeating, stress, pollution, alcohol, wrong food and pharmaceutical toxins which are liberated into the bloodstream and expelled from the body. Energy levels rise and fall in waves, emotions do the same. Memories, flashbacks, doubts, forgotten dreams, suppressed burdens and past pain all begin to bubble to the surface, and are released through happiness and tears. The colonics cleanse the large intestine, and one would not believe the amount of hard, putrefied waste that is washed away from the colon wall and released from the body. Once comfortable with the colonic process, it turned into a meditation, in which I consciously let go of thoughts, habits, doubts, and conditionings that no longer serve me, flushing them away with the physical waste. The liver flush saw a mass of hard green calcified stones ejected from the gall bladder and from my body. Goodbye to a youth of overindulgence.
The process has left me feeling light, alive, abundant, freer from addiction, liberated, inspired and perhaps a little more in control of my life. Ironically letting go of the need to be “in control” was something I consciously decided to release in the cleanse, but sometimes letting go of something allows it closer to our heart. With my increased education in the body’s digestive workings and proper nutrition, I am finding the motivation to put into my mouth things that nourish my cells and increase my wellbeing, rather than habitually consuming what is in front of me, what mass corporations produce or what others around me are consuming. I felt some concern at leaving Costa Rica after the cleanse and heading straight to New York City, of the peer pressure to “consume” and how rapid my inevitable retox would be. Instead, I found others receptive to my choices and curious to learn more as we explored yoga studios, delicious raw vegan restaurants, amazing juice bars, and beautiful public spaces.
Life is full of choices and you are in control of the choices you make, therefore, you are in control of the life you are creating and living. Here I am, in the drivers seat, creating my future, minute by minute. Choices of what I eat, what I buy, how I earn a living, with who I share time and love, how I play and of course the choice to say no. Weather or not you fully understand this; it is truth, so take a moment to shake off the poor me mentality and understand that you’re in control, it is your choices that are taking your life where you are headed. If you don’t like where you are headed, perhaps different choices may be needed. Life will never stop dishing us an abundance of new challenges to help us along our path, educate us, provide us with opportunities to look inside and explore the many layers that make up who we are. It is how we step up to these challenges, how we show up, our acceptance for opening and growth that will determine where and how we find happiness and joy.
So, with all this emptying, cleaning, releasing I now find increased clarity and an expansive space within my body and my soul that is open and available to be filled with things that serve my higher good. And while I never really know what life brings next, I aspire to allow this space to expand with a deeper capacity to love, an increased belief in myself, slower breath, greater awareness and acceptance of this moment – perfect exactly as it is, a heightened sensitivity to food, nutrition and slow eating, and an ever increasing desire to contribute, to give back, to make this world a better place.